Busy like a bumble bee for the past few weeks. So motivating to go to work nowadays! Because of the spectacular incentives due to cny period! hohoho for jan, I chocked an incentive of $2oo. Envious? ^-^ Gonna quit after I get the red packet from boss. (:

So proud of myself because I was so homely today. And everyone was out! including my maid. Initially wanted to spring clean my room but I was having really bad stomach cramps so I spent the afternoon emailing/blogging/online shopping and watching vids. I missed having the weekends to myself instead of devoting it to work. NO MORE WORKING ON WEEKENDS FOR ME. And I spent over an hour reading my texts. Woohoo, first time since school started. Kambate!

Pictures from a while back. Bbq with zhss peeps.

The girls were just there to free load. Th guys did everything (: thank you!

Ed’s farewell when everyone hung in there thru the night.

To go to school tmr or not? ):

A myriad of colours and emotions. I’m feeling so moody and groggy now. Currently irritated by stupid and silly things. Was too lazy to even respond or be entertained by daddy’s jokes just now. Tiredness and the lack of sleep is causing my irritability. Plus the long dreadful day in school. GOSH.

Today was bestie’s judegement day. And she finally did it! “say hello to chaufferrrr chewwww” was her text msg. woohoooo. more free rides and cool chill time!

It’s already week 3 in school and I still feel like school commenced only yesterday. UGC is a mod I’m totally struggling with and I’ve not done a single reading on it. ahhhh. School is feeling so stuffy and boring. Literally stuffy anyway. I’m lazy to work so many days a week already. It gets really busy at the shop nowadays. There was even a point of time I was nearly buried in clothes while trying to cash out for the customers in line! -.- Actively job scouting now, hopefully one with a better pay and flexible schedule.

Then again, I’m so glad work has been keeping me busy from ‘trouble’. hohoho at least thats always the existing reason for my ‘oops disappearance’. Recently, this friend of mine became so accusing towards me and I got really piqued. And I nearly said this in his face “you don’t know me well enough to be passing all these judgements.” It’s so hard being nice without getting into trouble. IDIOT.

school. work. school. work. tired.

TANYA

Hello tannieeeee. Something for you to laugh at! MISSES (:

I wanna share this really awesome and apt song for reminiscence sake (: it has been on repeat mode for nearly an hour. And the lyrics are really meaningful.

To my favorite teacher
Who told me never give up
To my 5th grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I missed
And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex-best friends
Don´t know how we grew apart
To my favorite band
And sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see
In my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I´m thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn´t for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
But didn’t show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I’m thinking of you
You showed me how,
how to live like I do
If it wasnt for you
I would never be who I am.

And I’ll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But thats just how it goes,
People change,
But I know
I wont forget you

- guitar solo -

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
and took a piece of my heart
To the few who´d swear
I´d never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I´m thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn´t for you
I would never be who I am

If it wasn´t for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn´t for you
I´d be nothing
Where are you now?

I’m hitting 21 this year. It sucks for me more than how it ought to be a WOW milestone. I’m growing up too fast and I really don’t wanna miss half of what is going on in life! I think I’ve grown to be more open-minded and reflective. Remember how I mentioned trying to be less judgey? I’m improving! or so i think. As in I’d appreciate heart to heart talks more often now. And yea, there’s always a time for jokes and a time for seriousness. I’d rather have a few good friends than tonnes of aquaintances. I’ve learnt quite a bit from the recent issues and I’d never expected myself to react this way. But i did. In a good way, that is (: But on the other hand, aren’t we all tired of superficial and shallow conversations? It’s really such a sad thing when friendship is built on the constant effort to spin up conversations that are merely in the attempt to ease akward silence. Friends should be able to stone in comfortable silence. Haha yesterday was a rather apt example but I shan’t elaborate. hohoho

Omg such an emo entry! “but thats just how it goes, people change.” I wanna watch movies, go to sentosa, night cycle, learn roller blading, bake cookies and brownies AND lose weight before cny! hohoho!

So my brother’s celebrating his 18th with his bunch of friends downstairs! Happy 18th! And I don’t wanna be in the way so I’ve decided to blog. Been rather lazy to do so lately hohoho. Anw, might be popping over to queen’s house to chill later. bkk ftw! I really need retail therapy. What’s with me and all these uncontrollable frenzy to buy stuff even though I’m fully aware of the financial crisis I’m facing now! haha MY OWN financial crisis la. I just don’t usually spend so much, SOMEHOW.

Pre birthday celebration.

Tada! the present I got him. with the help of the good friend LEE!

 

oops! totally unflattering pic of the birthday boy. BUT i like how my curls look here hohoho ;P

hohoho! anw school seems to be an awful dread. SOS ): i don’t know why but the boring and liveless vibes are getting to me. Plus the bad grades from previous sem isn’t motivating me to go to school at all.

You know what, since you can’t please the whole world, just please yourself.

Hello 2010! I’m so happy now because I’m waiting for Home Alone 1 to stream! Angie gave me this new site where I can watch all the movies (: A tad late since xmas was a week ago but I’ve been wanting to watch this again since ages. Tis the season to be jolly falala… received great gifts! and more to come hohoho!

So 2009 ended on a great note and the beginning of 2010 was even more awesome  Shall keep my reflections for the next post. When photos can make u smile heartily.. sweet!

 

Today is my lazy day. Don’t we all just have days when we refuse to leave the house despite having plans? Simply because we don’t feel like. hohoho! So i need my quiet slacks and tv moments. Plus the attempts to sleep at 3 odd because sleeping at 5am is insane. Boo I can’t help it.

We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.

Hohoho. Merry merry christmas to all! I’m in high skies today.. (:

Because they gave me reason to smile.

Firstly, I permed my hair! haha the curls seem to be dying really fast cos of the weight of my long hair. But at least, there is slight volume and less bald spots. haha! I caught alvin and the chipmunks 2 yesterday. Totally loved the film and even my toes were giggling. Cuteness to the max! ;P love the surprise christmas gift at 12am. My bro also got me a pair of lovely ear studs from lee hwa today. so sweet of him >.< Had great cheesecakes at fnc. Followed by dirty smelly hot dinner at chomp chomp with the family. But it was a great feast time with more than 7 different dishes. chicken wings, lala, fried carrot cake, oyster egg, prawn mee, stingray, pohpia, satay and beancurd. 

As much as I feel blessed and happy, I’m confused. HOHOHO.

My younger bro went on exchange to Shanghai for 2 weeks. It has only been a week but it feels like a month already. Today, my twin reported to his new camp. The house seems so quiet  without the 2 guys…. where’s the festive mood??

Woke at 9am because mummy wanted to go to Botanic Gardens for photoshoot. haha!

quality time and hilarious moments love the pictures of that day. credits to my twin! 

favourite shot of the day (:

On a random note, can you stop being so wishy washy and passive. I rest my case ): sometimes i think you do, sometimes i think you don’t. And I’m resolved to sweep judgy-ness out of my life. eeky yucky tangly mess.

This week has been horribly terribly atrociously unbearable with the toll of exams and mugging. I’m thankful it’s over. But then again, it’s always the unforgiveable sin of studying only the DAY BEFORE. who in the right mind does that and expects an A. ): boo. horrible papers this semester.

because I was surviving on approximately 3 hrs of sleep for the entire week, I gave the night gathering a miss last night. And I received 3 smses from 3 different people. YOU. I. HATE. haha idiots.

and it was an enlightening day out with jun today. We met at 4 and chatted till 10pm. 6 solid hours of quality time catching up! It’s interesting how I always learn new stuff from her. Life, love, friends, family.. we should all care-less.  And I hate going to Orchard on saturdays. The crowd itself makes me sick.

A short getaway on virgo tomorrow. I’m going to be sleep-recuperating and gymming on board. Time for a break. For the peeps struggling with CSE, lucks to that and hang in there!

Another 7 days before I end my last paper and complete the 1st semester of my second year!

Things left to do:

1) essay qn 1

2) essay qn 2

3) essay qn 3

4) 5 page report!!

5) study com231

6) study com337

7) study soc101

study ntr

Awesome -.- I’m counting down the days cos it’s been really suffocating of late. Boohoo.

What I want to do is travel and shop. To get out of singapore!!